January 2012
1 post
April 2011
1 post
March 2011
5 posts
“You’ve got a bad case of being over there. The only cure is being over here.”
– To my babies - big and small, and very tall and handsome
Then =January, 2010 - a million years ago..
Then: God, I need a job
Now: It took a while, but thank you, thank you. 1000 Hail Marys currently in progress.
Then: My brain is melting.
Now: No doubt the result of watching The View one too many times while making peanut butter sandwiches two days in advance.
Then: He’s cute.
Now: No. He was just OK, but I’d do him.
Then: I...
My daughter has way more tumblr followers
than I do… than I ever would, or know how to or ever care to try.
like a ridiculous amount.
And she blogs perpetually and creatively and inappropriately and provocatively and insignificantly and spells things correctly and moves people and acts her age but never her shoe size, with passion and conviction and discipline and wanton abandon and teen angst and hormones and an unhealthy...
January 2011
1 post
“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply,...”
– Pablo Neruda (via quotewhore)
Sound of me bowing to Sr. Neruda for his beautiful mind and words…and to the Heavens for knowing exactly what he means and living it right now.
October 2010
2 posts
“We accept the love we think we deserve”
– And when this finally sinks in - and you are BEING this everyday, it is physically impossible to settle - for anything, anywhere. At work. In bed. In line at Starbucks. It’s a blessing - and a curse. “Good enough” was easier- but now, the thought of it just makes me nauseous.
September 2010
3 posts
I Didn't Know...
Surfing the Internet. Looking for inspiration. For all things, You. Hmmm…
Red Hot Chili Peppers. Love. Songs. Red Hot Chili Peppers’ love songs.
Found something called, “Looking for Love.” I don’t know that one. I can’t find the track on any album list. I can’t find the song anywhere. Only these lyrics.
Well, I do love words.
And you.
Happy Birthday.
Love, Me.
LOOKING FOR...
6 tags
I need to vote this November because...
- Bernie Madoff, subprime loans, bank bailouts, WorldCom, AIG, R-E-S-P-E-C-T
- there were no WMDs in Iraq and I hold grudges
- Sarah Palin’s voice bugs me
- the COBRA subsidies and extended unemployment benefit checks in my bank account
- Fox & Friends
- Rand Paul and Ben Quayle creep me out
- Mama Grizzlies
- We can’t afford to make the perfect the enemy of the absolutely...
6 tags
“So in America, now, let us — Christian, Jew, Muslim, agnostic, atheist, wiccan,...”
– Jon Meacham
http://www.pbs.org/wnet/need-to-know/culture/in-perspective-religion-in-america/3488/
August 2010
2 posts
2 tags
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“Many people lose the small joys in the hope for the big happiness.”
– I’m afraid that I have lost out on buckets of small joys in my life as I cleared the way for the big happiness - that is all in my head. It doesn’t exist. I made it up - that big happiness.
Small joys - that’s the ticket.
Those little suckers are everywhere: the cold side of my...
June 2010
1 post
After a self imposed sabbatical - away from the evils of the interweb, suddenly, I find myself awake half the night, after the longest day of the year, looking for something to write, revise, reveal, rediscover, revile or reblog. Like a crack ho roaming the streets and back alleys looking for a trick and a fix.
Damn. And I was doing so well.
April 2010
6 posts
“The more each dry-wrung udder froths the pail, more copious soon the...”
– AttnPlease on Twitter.
You know it’s bad when the highlight of my day is reading about RFID tagged cows tweeting.
“Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the...”
– Alexander Smith
… delight and sometimes utter shock, awe and total freak-out.
“Mommy, you skin is cool and you warm. Mommy you arms are hard and squitchy. Oh,...”
– John Henry, 4.
Another top 10 little life moment in the books.
“Let’s ruin each other for other people.”
– Me to you, entwined in a morning love wrap. You laughed. I was serious.
March 2010
2 posts
Feel now, think later, for more flowing creativity... →
I am always editing [my life] in my head.
“Creating can be Living is an emotional process. But there’s good emotional—even when you’re sad or the work your life epitomizes sorrow—and there’s bad emotional. That’s when your inner critic attacks you, calls you mean names, and causes you not to feel like creating your life anymore, dealing with things as they are or getting out of bed.
...
“…think of times in your life that you’ve treated people with extraordinary...”
– David Foster Wallace
“Pure uninterested concern….” My goal for the week.
February 2010
7 posts
Is this a test???
It may be just me, but living life these days feels like some kind of mind and will-squeezing test; an advanced chemistry final - with no multiple choice questions; a pop trigonometry quiz on a rainy Friday morning after a Thursday tequila shot all-nighter.
Just when I feel I have my bearings, confident I know most of the answers or at least all of the good questions- BANG! Life hits me with some...
“There are very few human beings who receive the truth, complete and staggering,...”
– Anais Nin
I promise to keep working on the laborious mosaic and just toss the huge chunks of complete bullshit I’ve been collecting. Yay!!
6 tags
“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes...”
– Anaïs Nin
AND who knows when to be still and give me space when I…
- really need to make a point,
-succumb to a hormonal imbalance,
-road rage,
-moisturize, analyze and reconstitute,
-withdraw from the world,
-caffeine-jitter,
-babble incomprehensibly,
-sing in the shower,
-squeeze...
"...you deserve it." (I do???)
- A pat on the back.
- A kick in the ass.
- A pay check.
- A hug.
- A friggin’ break.
- A very strong and delicious martini.
- Fire in the hole.
- Complete and utter honesty.
- An occasional verbal bitch slapping.
- Peace of mind.
- A little luck.
- A night on the town.
- Grateful children.
- Passion. Compassion. Forgiveness.
- Loyal friends.
- A nap.
- Happiness.
- A...
January 2010
3 posts
An "L" word Letter (No, not Lesbian - but never...
Haven’t written one of these to anyone in a long while. Must document…before denial (and fear) sets in. Here I am, tapping with my thumbs on the tiny keyboard of my little “lifeline” at 5:00am. It happens more often than you would think. I do a lot of my thinking in my sleep and the thoughts pour out through my very tone Blackberry thumbs when I wake. I’m not sure...
“I must say a word about fear. It is life’s only true opponent. Only fear can...”
– Yann Martel
Next time I will reblog something from the Sound of Music or something with flowers or a bunny. Today, I must kick my own butt.
What a difference a year (or two) makes...
Then:
My job is a pain in the ass.
I have no free time.
He’s cute.
I love my kids.
Am I a good mom?
Oooh, those shoes are hot.
Who the heck is Sarah Palin?
I can do this myself; I don’t need you; please go away.
What the F’s up with my 401(k)?
He’s cute.
Is it me, or is Sarah Palin annoying as hell?
I’m going shopping for hot shoes.
Should I re-fi my...
December 2009
2 posts
“Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart. If we...”
– Frank Warren
EXCEPT for the prick who cut me off on the highway and sped away, weaving in and out of traffic like a drunk, nearsighted mental patient. Florida drivers totally BLOW!!
“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love...”
– -Bob Marley
Ah, yes. This holds true even when not toking on a honking Rhasta-mon spliff.
November 2009
7 posts
A prolific tumblr blogger I am not...
- No hottie hot naked chick with tattoo pics
- No video clips of biting political satire, the scary-but-true crap on Fox News, interesting information I didn’t know, or miscellaneous completely stupid shit
- No artfully thought provoking, sometimes breathtaking photographs
- No cheesy quotes in hard to read fonts
- No pics of that incredibly annoying-15-minutes-of-fame-hottie/ho, Megan...
“Alice came to the fork in the road.
“Which road do I take?” she asked.
“Where...”
– IT DOESN’T MATTER?? OMG! IT REALLY DOESN’T MATTER!!! YAY!!
“Endure the present, and watch for better things.”
– “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.”
“This too shall pass.”
“He conquers who endures.”
“The race is not always to the swift, but to those who keep on running.”
“Pa pa pa, poker face, pa pa, poker face.”
That’s...
“If I was my friend, I would give myself the most AWESOME advice.”
– me- the queen of, “do as I say not as I do…”
October 2009
10 posts
Why am I feeling guilty for not blogging because...
Because guilt is my middle name…
Thinking - bad. Living - good.
The Zen know-it-alls say, “a master in the art of living makes little distinction between work and play, between labor and leisure… Hardly knowing which is which, a master is always doing both.”
Living this life, being this person is harder than it sounds. But, ironically, the more challenges I face in my life these days, the easier it comes. Maybe I’m just too tired to think...